It has been a proper tough day, it feels like I’ve gone back 10 weeks. The people in my group who I call friends gave me gifts today that were hard to accept and it took a while to let them in.  I have been constantly justifying my thoughts / actions but when I heard them come out of my mouth I couldn’t believe it. My addict is strong and I must work this programme to keep a handle on it otherwise I AM FUCKED… BIG TIME!

Dave’s walk with God was unreal, I listened to the words of the songs and cried like a baby….. powerful stuff. I must surrender everyday,