Positive day again, honest and thoughtful. Made a decision to go against my self will to protect myself and someone else. It’s not going to be easy, at the moment I am obsessing more becasue I am conciously aware that I have to keep my distance. At the end of the day my recovery is the most important thing in my life.

Good positive day, moved last night and slept like a baby. I feel connected today and happy within myself. At peace and grateful.

Emotional day, last night was tough again with Nigel, I was pissed of with how it was dealt with and was worried for my house. My concern then shifted to Allan who worried me all day. My peer evaluation blew me away and I have been trying to accept it and believe it. I love my group and feel honoured to be a part of it, I must stop crying! but any little thing sets me off.

This week has been a test and I have learnt so much from it. Last nights events did fear me up a bit and exhausted me. I have accepted it and have grown spiritually I feel. Seeing Nigel like he was made me feel like I never want to be like that again and also saddens me to see this disease in action over three nights. I will never forget the events and after all thats happend myself and my house did not drink or use. I am proud of myself and my housemates. I am looking forward to a good nights sleep.

Emotional day, but a good one after yesterdays events. Struggled last night with Nigel but my priority was my housemates. Cried twice today but I needed it. Step 6 and 7 was good for me and I needed the feedback, feel better now.

Interesting day! I got a letter from my mum telling me nothing I didn’t already know about my behaviour on Sunday. I was also expecting  Senior Peer but have been denied for telling the truth and owning my actions on Sunday. I have obviously still got alot to learn. I reacted wrongly and i am sorry. I need to deal with my feelings.

I think I have realised something, all through treatment I’ve been thinking of the thing I need to let go of. Some big event in my life, but that’s not the case , it’s myself I need to let go of, my actions and selfishness.

A good positive and determined day. Looking forward to my family visit. Got alot from last nights meeting. Very thoughtful last night.

A positive and determined day, I need to work on my character defects because I am catching myself. It’s been a good week for my group and myself. My group give me the balls to be honest and fearless.

A very grateful day, grateful for my group, TTP, my peers and my life. Andy’s step 3 letter to God was the most powerful I have had the pleasure to hear. Vanda has had the best day so far I think. She has inspired me. I love my group.