Been a good day today. Andy’s step 1 brought back feelings I had. I really needed to hear it and remembered what the past had brought me. It made me thoughtful and even more determined not to go back to that place. Grateful to my group for their honesty.

Good day today, feeling good with myself. I’m finding that praying during the day when things get on top of me helps. I’m in a good place at the moment.

Had an interesting night last night, had a test. Walking back from the centre two of my mates popped out of a house in front of us drinking beer, stopped for a chat and they were off to pick up some sniff. I had a bad craving but shared it with James and it soon went. I felt good about myself.

I felt grateful and at peace this morning…. until process.  Each day I grow closer to my group, I feel their pain. One of my group had a tough night last night and has struggled all day, I didn’t know how to help him but I told him I was always there for him if he needed a chat. His face when we sang happy birthday was brilliant, he really didn’t expect it. The unity of my group is like nothing I have ever felt or seen before.

Today I woke up happy, it feels like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I’m not sure what it is, maybe it’s god, not sure….. I truely hope so. I want this so much, I am so grateful to be here. Reading out my step 2 was hard but I have accepted what I have done. The past is the past ….. Now it’s time to change my thinking and become the person I was supposed to be.

I have been feeling frustrated today, I think it’s lack of sleep. I say my prayers, then sit still for a while and feel at peace, then as soon as I lay down… BANG! My head starts talking bolox to me and I can’t shut it up.

Dave’s meeting was very good and I am grateful and determined to be here and succeed.

The day started shit until I shared my anger and shame in process. I let things get to me yesterday and build up over night. I MUST SHARE MY FEELINGS MORE! I felt closer to Allen today, he shared his pain after his life story. I really trust my group and feel closer to them everyday.

Shit day! Everything and everyone has pissed me off in oneway or another. It started with a letter. I am surrendering, I think, but it’s fucking hard. I’m proper struggling with all my feelings!

I am still determined and willing, I feel really safe here. My card, I got in group, related to me big time. I felt strange, but very good. I want this more everyday.

I’m feeling good today, I have had the best nights sleep since I arrived. I really enjoyed the fellowship meeting today. I related a great deal to the speaker, I was totally inspired.

I am feeling focussed and determined.